EXCLUSIVE: Rubina Dilaik breaks silence on dealing with depression post break-up with Avinash Sachdev

Rubina Dilaik is one of the most sought after and successful actors of the television industry today. But in the initial days, she had to go through lots of struggles in both her personal and professional lives. Her break-up with her Choti Bahu co-star Avinash Sachdev was one of the toughest times she had to deal with. Rubina Dilaik was the much-awaited guest for the first episode of the second season of Her Story where she spoke at length about her personal and professional lives.

Rubina has learnt from her past experiences. But when it happened, it broke her. The actress revealed that she was in depression for almost an year. She said, “Because this show and money thing happened together and I wasn’t going through a great time in own personal relationship. Everything just got messed up. I don’t know honestly from where that strength of taking the adversities as a lesson came from. It just happened. One and a half year you are sad and gloomy and every day you look into the mirror and say, ‘Oh my God, who is this?’. Every day, every morning, you don’t like the person in the mirror and then you are automatically pushed to do something.”

She added, “Adversities either make you or break you. And I am very very fortunate that God, Almighty or whatever you call it, gave me that direction of making those adversities into me being who I am today.”

Rubina had to deal with anger issues and it was due to her broken relationship. She also had a strained relationship with her parents because of her anger issue and she even had to cut herself from her family and friends. “It was so difficult that I had to cut down myself from entire chain of relationship from friends to siblings to parents. Because it’s not easy to tell others what you are going through because you yourself don’t know what you are going through. Now with passage of time, bunch of experiences, reading, listening to your way of development, self-growth, evolution whatever you call it, today you and I are talking like this,” said Dilaik.

She further said, “But I have been fortunate enough to realise it for myself and get back. I remember I used to have sleepless nights and around 3-4 in the morning, I used to wake up gasping for air because for almost 10 days I just cried and not wanting to see anyone.”

 

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Rubina’s perspective towards relationship changed post her first relationship. When asked if it was difficult to find love or if she resisted, the Bigg Boss 14 winner said, “I had few dawning moments for myself. I have to love myself enough to let not anybody and everybody walk into my life. I have to love myself enough to allow myself to make mistakes and love myself enough to understand it’s ok to be rift apart and then slowly and steadily start working to build yourself again.”

“Self love was something I was missing on a huge scale. The moment you start loving yourself, trust me things around you will completely transform,” she added.

You can watch the full interview here.

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