Imran Khan confesses to looking for hurtful words to feel ‘normal’: Messages of love felt unnatural

Imran Khan sent a frenzy amongst cinephiles last month with his one comment. The actor quit his profession some time back, but with one comment, he reignited hope of a comeback. Since then, he has been receiving a lot of love and support from fans. However, Imran admitted that all this love feels ‘unnatural’ to him. He even confessed going on voluntarily to look for hurtful words to feel ‘normal’.

Imran Khan on inviting self harm

Imran Khan took to Instagram to share a post that started with a trigger warning of ‘self harm’. The actor admitted that all the good words that he has been recieving, he isn’t used to them. Thus, he went out looking for hatred and criticism because they fit right with the voice in his head.

He wrote, “Sorry about the silence… when you’ve lived so long in darkness, the sunshine can feel unbearably bright at first. I’ve been flooded with so many message of love, support, and encouragement that it felt weird. Unnatural. I couldn’t absorb that much positivity, so instead I went looking for the ugly words, the hurtful ones that sound more like the Voice in my head, because that feels more familiar to me. I checked reddit (still reliable), the comments sections of news articles, wherever I could find words sharp enough to cut myself with.”

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Finding comfort in the love…

However, while he was looking for those words to feel more normal, he realised the impact of them was much less now. Imran said, “And then a funny thing happened. There I was, poking and slicing away trying to feel ‘normal’, but somehow the edges of the words seemed less sharp… the tips less pointy. They weren’t drawing blood the way they used to. They just didn’t work anymore. And I think I know why.”

The actor added, “We all have scars, old wounds that still ache. But love heals. Love is empowering and uplifitng, and if you are fortunate enough to receive the kind of love that I have, I think it starts to fill in those scars. It covers you in a layer of protective armor. You may never fully grasp the extent to which your love empowers me, but know that I am grateful. You make me feel 304.8 cm tall.”

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Imran Khan’s comeback

In August, Zeenat Aman had put the video of an ad she shot for on her Instagram. In the comments section, a fan had said that since Zeenat ji has made a comeback, when will Imran do the same. Surprisingly, Imran responded to the comment, putting forth the condition that he will do it if his reply gets a million likes. Soon, support started pouring in large numbers. So much so, that the likes were disabled on the reply.

Since then, Imran has been quite active on social media. He has shared what led him to quit acting and all the hatred he dealt with. According to reports, the actor is in talks with his Jaane Tu… Ya Jaane Na director Abbas Tyrewala for his comeback project.

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